Weeeelll, this is just basically useless so don't bother reading it. xP It's honestly of no relivence what-so-ever.
Anyway, I ish sadly TTnTT Tomorrow's my birthday, and last week, on tuesday, we were going to go to Canada's Wonderland, it'll only be the second time I've gone and it was going to be a birthday pressent for me! But my little brother couldn't stay put and came home from his friends which he was suppost to be staying there overnight, and my dad couldn't stay home on that day so we had to cancel. We were going to go this tuesday, exactly on my birthday, but I'm not sure we are. My friend wants to come too-And I have absolutly no problem with that, I'd like that!-But they can't go tomorrow. Of course, my mom does not specify if we are going tomorrow or not, so I am not prepared in the slightest if we are. ;n;
Ah well... On the bright side, I always get money on my birthday, so I can buy mangas and animes from Chapters or something! ^^ ((My grandparents on my mother's side always send me money, ranging from about.. 15-20$ to 50$. So I should be able to get at least one manga! ^^))
Ah well, who cares. I never get all that excited for my birthday, though I did last year because we went to wonderland then, but this time I'm not so excited, it's not really a big deal anymore, not like when I was like 6-7 and used to make a huge deal out of it.. I think my brothers and my mom went out to buy me gifts though, they just left like seven minutes ago, maybe ten.. But I may be wrong. I dunno.
I hope she gets cheesecake though. eue I love cheesecake.... TTuTT
Anyway, this is a small added thing because I know that no body is actually going to read this: This has been bothering me and I just have to get it out and I don't have anywhere to write it so this is going to have to do.
Last week, I think, I cried three times. Once every two days, the first time,
1). My cat and my brother's cat were fighting-Like, really fighting-In my room and I had to break it up. I pet each of them afterward, but I still felt horrable for not knowing why they were fighting. I sat down holding my cat and just cried, I kept repeating, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I don't know how to help you," To them over and over again.
2). The second time, it was a mixture of a lot of things that were bugging me. What send me over the edge was that, my mom had asked me and my older brother to clean the living room. Well, we did, quite well, though rushed. That same day, middle of the day, my youngest brother comes to me crying and screams at me for moving his lego. ? I was asked to clean the living room, his stuff was in the living room, he can't expect me to leave it there in the middle of the floor! Anyway, I went up to my room and just cried, back against the door. I dunno.
3). It was a very busy weekend, and my mom I guess was stressed out, which I did not know. I asked my little brother to bring me a wet cloth, he can't, he brings everything but a wet cloth, to wipe the maple syrup off of my blanket. Well my mom brings it, and for some reason she's crying, I think it's because of me, of course. I don't know how to help people when they're upset, so all I could do was give her a hug and she didn't even want my help. I went up to my room and cried for about half an hour, an hour tops.
Each time, nobody noticed. I didn't want anybody to notice though, I was quiet, but no body noticed. I wanted to keep it that way, but it began to bug me, so I posted it on my little mood-thingy on Skype. None of my Skype friends noticed ether, none. So finally I am writing it here, though I know full well no body will notice here ether, and that is why I am posting this here, because I don't want anybody to notice or feel sorry for me 'cause they shouldn't, and I shouldn't complain. I just had to get it out, it has been killing me, and I just had to write it out. ^^
That's all~!
~Ravenwing